Animals & Me

For the species that has the most developed brain, we are absolutely ruining each other and the rest of the world. We are becoming more socially awkward than ever and honestly enjoying our alone time. We are no more able to handle each other and have forgotten how to.

I am one of those people. I still don’t know how to connected with a human being. But I most definitely know how to connect with animals. I think it is mainly because it is the most effortless job. It doesn’t even feel like a job, it just happens. 

I have connected with many animals and insects but the problem is, I and my and to get too close to them. And that part of me never has been an problem. I connected with a house lizard, a dog and anot elephant this month. 
They truly listened to me and loved me with all my faults. The best part is, they chose to do that. It wasn’t forced on them or expected of them. They just did. And they made me forget them. 

I smiled, I cried, I shared my deepest thoughts and emotions with them and they listened. They didn’t judge or question or try to advice me otherwise. They just listened. I guess they knew that that is all I needed. I didn’t need answers or a conversations, I just needed a listener. They were there for me. 

They didn’t mind that I didn’t mingle with them or hugged them or fed them. They were just happy that I existed. They respected my fears and understood them and maintained theiron distance instead of forcing themselves on me. They did truly love me for who I am. And they were in all sense there for me.

Though doesn’t this just bother you? That you are not able to connect with your own kind anymore like that? Or maybe it is just me who is the balck sheep of this species. 

The Conflict Between Body and Soul

During my low days, which are way too frequent now, the conflict between my body and soul is just a lot more intense. They just are never in sync. Though I doubt that many have reached that synchronised living. But to every individual everyone but themselves  have reached there. Though there are times when I do reach that sense of balance, though most of those times, that balanced line is way too low. Both my body and soul decide to just take a depression trip. 

What I have learned through the vast intensity of social networking these days is that even for the most embarrassing moments, you are not alone. There is someone out there on the other side of the planet, or maybe right next to you, who is just going through the exact same thing. But we live in our own eggshell thinking that no one gets us. I bet there is atleast one other person out there who has been through what I have been through this particular evening. This is not the first time, but it sure is the first time I am completely public about it. 

This fine evening I was asked by my grandmother to go lock up the compound gate of our house. She realised that it was about time that I stepped out of this man-made structure. I appreciated her attempt and decided to do it. I grabbed the lock and key and stepped out. 

It was dusk and there was a magical orange filter over everything around me. My body was recording this beautiful visual. I could feel my eyes widen and my body awaken as I could smell the flowers and trees after so long. I couldn’t remember the last time my body opened up to all its senses. I could feel my body float to cloud nine. 

Though,  this time my soul decided to be the party pooper and weighed itself even down to hell. I sensed it abandon my body and look at it dance from outside. The whole short walk through the front yard became a dreadful and joyous experience. 

The was a smile struggling to make its way out but the weight of my soul turned it into a frown. It is always said that you are not the body, you are the soul. But suddenly I felt like the rope in the tug of war between them. I felt like I was neither. Suddenly feeling rather insignificant to the world. 

Now, I know that I am not insignificant and that I have a lot of power and I can do so much for this world with mt great talents.  And many more such talks. But it is so hard to actually work on those when you can not get your body and soul to coexist for longer than a few days. And sometimes even few hours is a big trouble. 

For those out there who completely understand the nonsense I have written, I am sorry that you do. But hopefully we will get through it soon together. Maybe the whole point is not to get them to coexist and in fact rise about the tug of war and just ignore them. Yeah. Thats another nonsense talk. What ever helps, I hope we work it through. Good luck my fellow ropes. I hope we are able to stop contradicting our own emotions.